i'd give anything to be her.

Ok.. this is going to be a long post.

I was browsing through all the pictures in Picasa when i suddenly came through old pictures of me from when i was like 3 years old to 12. Everything was like there, pictures at home, vacations, the mall, pool, school, pool, mall, zoos anywhere. Mom and dad used to love taking our pics but now, ehh i don't think so. Now since my sister is kinda interested in photography she takes most of em.

Anyways, i just realized how much i missed my childhood, well i mean I'm still at my childhood years now but its different. I'm in 7th grade, and in 2 years id be sent off to another country for studies, so id need to study hard these years. It isn't like before where everything was joyful and simple and the things you need to worry is getting caught by mom and dad cause you ate a piece of chocolate before dinner.

I found a lot and decided and post a few here which i really missed.. to tell the truth, i had actually cried (ALOT, seriously ALOT) when i saw all of them, did i mention i get teary really fast? Well its just that i miss being 'her' so much, the worst part is i actually remembered those moments very clearly, like what i had said sand what happened. it seems like so not long ago. But  the sad part is no matter how sad and how much i wish i could go back in time to enjoy  every moment you can't do that.

and i have to say, I'm very sensitive at the fact that eventually, everyone grows up and things change.

I don't want to be a mother/woman who is working someday worrying about bills or whatever. i want things to stay just the way they are. Ok, i admit I'm crying again now.. :'(

 I think this was 4 years ago, Singapore Zoo. Look how innocent my face used to be.. and again, i remember this moment and how i used a picture from the zoo to present my mandarin IDP.

 Penang, 3/4 years ago at the rocky place with the sea just ifnront of G hotel.

 at my old home about 2 years ago, this is sort of when my sister got interested in pictures, she was like p6 then and when i started to like being in front of a camera ( heheh) Anyways, i miss this too, this is so clear. I remember after this shots, we went to different areas in our home me wearing different outfits :D

 Greece, 6 years ago. This is when i started crying last night. Cause greece was my favorite place i went. I could really recall this time very well. This was at the ship on the aegean sea with my friend Jennifer. Greece was SO beautiful.

 At the hotel in Greece. With my mom, my dad took this picture. I swear i remembered the whole dialogue..

 First year of school! K1~ with my friend filbert g. This doesn't seem so long ago but it is :(

 Winny and me. Aw, we look so different.. We've been together for 9 years wow.

 Cynthiani. Claudia and moi. Uh well, i don't remember this at all and why we are here. But ew, look at my bangs, blehh. Cynthiani n Claudia looked so cute :3

 Tanjung Lesung, ah this was one of my favorite vacations since all my cousins from moms side was there and we had so much fun. I missed my old hair… And the whole vacation i could still remember! Even small unimportant facst like i got a fake tattoo, i saw donald duck, we had a small private pool and the villas. I MISS THIS MOMENT.

 China(:

 Going cycling, seriously this is so vivid. Its so clear in my head.

 Me and momma.. aww :( at the beach nearby. was so much fun:(


Seriously,if one day a genius scientist is able to invent some kind of magic potion which when you drink it'd be able to let you start over your life, id love that dude forever. i swear. words can't explain how much i want to start over..