* Not complete

YEAH! Its saturdayyyyyyyy~! * woot*.

I assume each of you had a great sunday so far, but me? well for my incomplete family, it isnt that great for us since Dad's away in Thailand to company his friend for some business which i dont really understand for a 3 days trip.!

SO, me, Katie and MOM has been feeling kinda alone this 2 days, i mean, us , IRWANS barely go other places without each other, so its kinda a challenge for me.

( Well, dont mention the time mom and dad flew off to Penang for a week leaving Amah in charge!)

Here's the list i miss about Dad:

• His extremely LOUD snoring at night

• The gargling sound he ALWAYS makes every day before stepping in the shower that can be heard 1 room away.

• His " Ling, want to take a long walk?"

• He used to hear this horrible mandarin songs every night after dinnner. Even though i despise hearing them since they are soo sad and soppy and the singer who sang it are so over-singing, and dramatic. There wasnt a day where Dad wouldnt hear that song, when that horrible track was played every night. Me and Mom and Katie would exchange amused look. But since now there was no horrible mandarin soppy songs, it felt so quiet , (*saying this quickly) and i have to admit that i really longed for that song!

•his 'scoldings' ..(hohohohohohoho) , although it mostly comes from Mom and it barely happened anyway.

• His smokes that makes me cough when he smokes. Oh yes, 10 sticks a day..(*sigh), i have been thinking of giving up from persuading him to stop that dangerous hobby..

Okay, true dad doesnt usually tuck us to bed something like that, so thats not what i missed like what you are expecting it to appear in the list.

But there are also good advantages that he's away, just one actually :

" he will not smoke in that time, since he's with his friends. Kinda weird, but he listens more to his friends.."

aaaand:

" i get the sleep in mom's bed!" hhhohohohh, im so mean! >:]

So, since papa's not here, i guess i am now stuck here in this boring sticky house. GREAT.

And to make matter worse, there's something called 'civil war' happening there, 5 protestor just died. Its NOW happening in Bangkok the place where Dad's now.

Man, Dad should have listened to us.

Mom's dead worried.

So am i.

So, Mom she uses this skype thingy to call Dad instead of using her phone since she doesnt want to get something called 'roaming' , and it took her like 6 tries to finally succeed in connecting it. So, Dad's trying to pretend that he doesnt know that we are calling and doesnt miss us that much, since his friends are around him. ckckckckkckck

Well, i do hope hope hope hope that nothing will happen to him. And no such thing as flight crash or accidents. Finger crossed.

* HAppy Mothers DAYYY!!

To the worlds best Mom, and thats one and only Tansri Yelinna thats living right here in Medan. Yeah, okay fine, go on and claim that yours is the best etc. I dont care, i know the truth that my mom is the best!

Dear Mom,

Happy Mothers Day! I hope you excuse the reason why i didnt get anything for you, after all, its not easy avoiding you to make something a surprise. Anyhow, if i succeed, it would never had happened, cause i aint got no money. =.='

Im sorry about all the wrong things i've done, the rules i disobeyed , lies i told and all. I know i may not be the perfect daughter you have wished for, but trust me, i have been trying hard to be one, only its kinda hard for me cause see....i am not really PERFECT. No one is.

Sometimes, i might felt that you can be really harsh and strict and all but and sometimes might be mad at you, that hurts your heart i know. If I had ever created a scar in you heart. Sorry, i didnt mean too =(

It took me 11 years to realize that for the tears you shed and the suffers you felt is for our own good. I regretted being such a jerk.

You are just like everything to me Mom, without you, i think i would now be 3 feet under the earth! Whenever i had problems, you had the solution.

Whenever i felt cloudy, you are the sunshine

Whenever i am tore to pieces, you are my glue

Whenever i had bottles of secrets, you are the cups that i can spill on.

Whenever i felt overstressed, you are my stress-reliever oil.

I wonder if i had ever realised about all the even little things you have done for us, if they are as tiny as dandelions, it must be enough to fill up the whole field. Why didnt i realize that before? How could i been so selfish? I think i owe you thousands of thanks, which is what i am doing now. Well, actually, i can make a whole post with only one word thank you, but lets just make it shorter.

Thanks for all the love you have given us, its worth more than golds the richest pig might have. Nothing can replace your love to us.

You are my one and only MOM that no one will ever be like. Be proud of it, never change for anything. Just stick in being my mom forever. As far as i know, no as i ALWAYS know and is definite, you are definitely the best Mom ever~ Love, Selina, the 'perfect' daughter.

* Dear Daddy

I wont ask for any presents or stuffs again but i have one favor , please try to stop smoking dad!

You already know that your health is already in bad condition and smoking is one of the reason.

So why dont you at least try ?

Imagine what will happen if there was no father in this family, you're the only man in the Irwans.

What will happen if something bad happens and you werent here to help us?

And when me and Katie were now in college and have to go to SIngapore would you like Mom to be alone?

There are so many reasons of why we cant survive without you.

You know you get tired easily , have bad breath , get stress always and thats because of smoking.

ME and Katie doesnt want to lose a father , mom doesnt want to lose a husband, grandma and grandpa doesnt want to lose a son, uncle and auntie doesnt want to lose a brother and cousins doesnt want to lose an uncle.

ARe you really going to let all these people down after how hard they've tried to talk you to quit smoking?

So pls. Put that cigar down

* Guilt

After mom called last night n we chatted for a long time, we went to sleep with one light opened. That night, i started thinking about guilt. I called mom when they went to someplace, i texted her, write to her. When they were home, i cuddle to mom, stick to her, talk to her n kissed her gudnight.

But did i do all these things to DAD?

Nope is the answer i think. I dunno y i never did that all to dad, no reasons ..( except 4 gudnight kiss, u know how ur mouth smells wen u smoke)
Hmm... i think the last thing we did together was made our own ice cream.
Pretty good yums! Bu helllo??? tis is not wat we were talking abouT!!

The guilt was still there when i go to school...it shocks me more wen i see some graveyards thinking that dad wil b one of them in the future n i wont hav the chance to kiss him or laugh or etc etc...

so todays topic is pretty short.

Ta-da

Miss so not sure wat to do

* Getting use to it

My third day without parent. Still not getting used. I texted her everyday n called her many times until i hear my grandma telling others about it.
Talk about privacy.
Grandma, was getting a little to my nerves. Please... electricity, neatness,
do u really have to care it soo much?
I woke up n found her folding my clothes which made my closet looks like a garbage can minutes ago. I helped until my back was sore,
She scolded me 4 not closing toilet light after using it. Sorry grandma but we never did that.
N etc...
Sheesh.... i cant resist it.

Vanessa came for a sleepover yesterday. It went okay. Only i wsn't use to the darkness grandma used n there was a big spot of sweat in the mattress when i heard typing in the computer.
REALLY!!

Today. went eating with my other grandma n her family. She kept giving me food like i was a baby n kept offering.
I accept at first then politely say reject afterwards.

Tonight, will go out with my grandma's family.




Busy as a Bug

* Mama , Papa!!

Mom n DAd had just flew to S'pore hours ago, i didn't get used to this situation. Right now my grandma is sleeping funnliy in the sofa letting the TV go on. N me, i was stealing glances at her making sure that she wont wake up.

It has just been hours n I miss them .....

Hours people. They will b back in days, days... oohhh , can i resist it?

They promised that they wil buy something for us. C0ol.

B4 mom went to the airport, the two of us were sticking to mom sobing loudly not wanting to let go, we did that too yesterday,

Mom promised to write messages. N she did.Her reply was slow.
Oh which is btw, mom n dad went to S'pore 4 a reason not 4 a happy holidayyyy... gee no.
I swear that Mom wil b reading this rite now!

I just dont know how.. i wont get use to coming home n not calling MOOM! n racing upstairs n telling about school n cuddling in her lap n counting the hours dad went swimming n chatting with them n taking dinner with them.

For meantime, till Thursday, it wil al b AMA!!!




Missing Them