Sunday, November 2, 2014

Make Me Wanna Die

Happy Halloween 2014!
I've always loved the idea of halloween ever since I was exposed to the whole concept of it through movies and stories. The whole anticipation of deciding what to dress up as, and having one whole night to roam around neighbourhoods demanding for candy from strangers (the only time its okay to accept candy from strangers). This goes without saying but obviously, 'trick or treat'-ing isn't probably going to happen in Medan for awhile considering how our houses are located and how uptight and strict medanese parents are. As if my mom would ever let me out at night dressing up as tinker bell going door to door for candies when I was 8 years old. Even if she did, people would most likely stare and shoo me away instead of having a basket of sweets ready to for me. Sigh. This is one of the many reasons why my childhood is wasted in this place.

Our school had a Halloween 'party' last Friday that was mainly arranged by the prefects team, me included, although the only help I contributed to the event was scooping away all the gooey slime from the deformed pumpkins. I feel like this 'party' only acts as an excuse for the whole school to dress up cause it honestly did not feel like one. It was basically half of the school awkwardly standing around the MPH in their own clusters under the dim lightning, not much of 'partying' going on. I, being the lazy uncreative girl I am, ended up going as a cat after hoping I'd come up with something more unique and failing. But really, all you need is a pair of cat ears and there'll be no confusion on what you're dressing up as.

I have to admit I came mostly for the cool pictures of me and my friends dressed up as different characters so here are some I've managed to snag from my friends' phones because my iPod's camera quality is starting to disappoint.
Bryan the chinese mafia
Me and Winny both went as cats+ Zennia as Zoe Benson
Jerrick as Gomez Addams
When the camera flash makes everyone look drunk, put on a black and white filter.
Julian as Jigsaw
Me and Nick. I forgot what he dressed up as but it involved a cigarette hanging between his lips

 Cat girl and Zoe Benson
Justin went as this character from this one movie that I can't remember, but he wore a really cool mask
 Ryo has no idea what he dressed up as either hahaha
Mr. June
 Calvin a.k.a Jack Skellington (?) ( This is the only picture taken with my iPod and you can clearly see the vast difference in quality. This is me indirectly telling my Mom I need a phone hehe)

Hope you all had a great Halloween cause I kinda did

Sunday, September 7, 2014


This post means nothing. These are just pictures I finally imported from my new Samsung NX mini camera and uploaded. To those of you on the fence about buying this camera, here are pictures I've taken and you can judge them for yourself.

Monday, August 25, 2014

carry you

I spent 3 days at singapore for a short visit cause my 'dear' sister seems to still be unable to accept the reality of her new surrounding even after 8 months of studying abroad. She has literally been infecting my mind with her endless list of 'reasons why you WILL regret studying abroad like me' for the longest time, and she tends to over exaggerate her discomfort it's kind of working. I used to brush her off but now I'm honestly terrified for my time to leave home so thanks a lot sis.

 Seriously though, I don't get or understand her 'pain'. I mean yeah, I bet the whole school and academic pressure must be overwhelming but Singapore is great man. You can go out with hot pink hair half shaved, paint on a unibrow and people will barely glance at you but here, if you so much show a bit of skin, people be losing their manners and straight up whisper and stare as if you have 3 heads. Not to mention how different shopping is there especially with the granted access of the MRT. You can spend a peaceful time revising for a chemistry exam at Starbucks without anyone interrupting your concentration but here, its hard to get out without meeting around 15 people you know ( what are you talking about Sel, you have no friends). But what can I say, when you share a room with an obnoxious little sister who sings at the top of her lungs, clutter the room with her junk and dirty clothes and stay up till 1 am with all the lights on for 17 whole years you're bound to miss her presence *winky face*

Guess what's inside this big ass pink paper bag?
I was practically squealing with joy when these thing caught my eye cause I've been hunting them down for ages. By my ecstatic reaction, anyone would think I'm a really good skater who is just excited to finally get her board when in fact, I'm just one of those people who find pastel penny boards pretty and can barely skate a metre long without stumbling at the floor. Oh well.

I look tired and dried up because I spent the whole last night bawling my eyes out and getting 0 sleep.

Thursday, August 14, 2014

dead to me

Trying to keep up the habit of blogging frequently turned out to be a lot harder than I expect. I wish I had a cooler excuse like "oh, I have too much fun things happening in my life I forgot to blog" rather than the loser fact that school is trying to eat away my soul.  I had actually promised myself to get rid of my bad habits and start fresh on my attitude towards school seeing how 10th grade is a crucial year and how impressive my grades were last year (I'm being sarcastic). Nothing extreme yet though, just those simple 'I WILL do my homework, and ' I will concentrate in chemistry class' goals to start me off. Well, that lasted about 3 days, because here I am, still frantically copying down the Math homework due today in discreet while the teacher is in front discussing about air pollution. Either that or trying to act all casual and interested while secretly scrolling through Instagram in my iPod. Honestly, I blame it all to my short attention span; I can't stay focused and stare at the board longer than 10 minutes because thats when whatever the teacher is saying starts to sort of tune out and when I'm on a silent battle on forcing to keep my eyelids open. I can never do my homework without a song on full blast or a TV show episode streaming in my laptop. Also, living life as a student is a heck load of struggle if you think about it. After 7 hours of absolute hell and dealing with my school's ridiculous rules, I'm straight off to tuition for another extra 2 hours of 'education' because I'm dumb. I reach home at around 7-8 pm, and after showering and having dinner, it's already 10 pm. It should have been my well deserved time to surf the internet as I please but oh wait, I can't,  because I have 2 english essays and 3 pages of math problems due tomorrow. Which means I have to use my brain think and I bloody hate thinking at night.

I could go on because if I'm passionate about anything, it would be my hatred towards the whole idea of 'school' but I don't want to seem like an ungrateful brat. For now, here are pictures of me wearing my head dress in different angles but with the same pissed off, irritated expression.

 pictures by my sister